UNEMPLOYED me

I've been unofficially but technically a TAMBAY for a year now and I tried applying to some companies (as a company nurse) and even to hospitals, but I think my luck just disappeared. Though my friends even told me to try applying in our Alma mater since they are constantly hiring, them ranting and sharing all the hardships they have is enough for me to decline the offer.

Currently, I am busy with being a DEDICATED Red Cross Volunteer. Still not sure if teaching is my passion or is it really being on the game field of illnesses and the dying is my destiny, I'm currently stuck on this cause this is the only thing I can and may do as of the moment not to be an idle soul. And mind you it may seem that I'm tired of it but NO!!! I'm still enjoying every single bit of it but the constant (well not that everyday thing but still) nagging of my dear mom is affecting me already.

Honestly, if only this thing I do now love doing gives me enough to support me financially and keep me at least alive I WOULD CONTINUE SERVING. But it has come to this point that my mother's simple words kind of struck me. And yes, thinking of her age I understand why she keeps on telling me to MOVE! She's already 53 (turning 54 this June) and is not getting young. She seems to be wanting to retire ever since she got that "Laid off because of Work Description Redundancy" but then her PRIDE induced unica hija is an UNEMPLOYED BUT ONE TIME BOARD PASSER, MEDICINE PROPER FAILURE RED CROSS VOLUNTEER INSTRUCTOR at the moment and obviously I'm financially dependent to her.

A month ago I was given an opportunity to teach First Aid in the hospital I tried to applied to. The training manager asked me if I tried applying, and told me to pass my resume to her. I did and so I wished, I hope and I pray that they would call me. But hearing from my friend, co-instructor that she was hired and is waiting for her orientation schedule and that during the interview NEWLY GRADUATES WHO SUBMITTED THEIR RESUME JUST THIS JANUARY WERE HER CO-INTERVIEWEES, I just felt sad that how come newly grads are taken into consideration than us who graduated almost 3 years already and have all the trainings we needed and to add to that we are qualified enough for the job (fyi my board rating is line of 8 and i belong to the upper half of my class). Then just recently my co-instructor who submitted the resume just weeks before mine already got the call and is for examination already. Well I believe he is very much qualified, or even overqualified for the position. I also just learned that a friend is very much excited to get into the Hemodialysis world and has already finished her cases and is hoping she could be absorbed by the training center she trained in. And another friend constantly getting rackets as a reliever nurse in companies is happy with her constant relieving. I am VERY MUCH HAPPY FOR THEM, HONESTLY, but the fact that I am being left behind by these people I am used to be with through hardships and simple joys are now finding their paths now, the paths they dreamed of and wished to get into makes me happy but honestly at the same time... DEPRESSED.

Though I am positively, patiently, wishing, hoping, and praying that I WOULD BE CONTACTED SOON by any company, hospital or work place in any job position I may be placed in. I still have that feeling of negativity asking myself UNTIL WHEN? Until when can I wait? Until when do I have to be constantly told by my mom to move. Until when will I remain as a volunteer? Until when will I have to feel ALONE, facing all these problems by myself as a PRETENTIOUS BRAVE GIRL standing up after her failure in 1st year Medical Proper.

Though a positive thing I found as a a TAMBAY...

1. I get to control my own time
2. I still get allowance from mom :D
3. I get to travel with friends and relatives whenever I want
4. I can impulsively go to a certain place without the problem of being in danger of loosing a source of income, let's say a JOB
5. I can just stay at home the whole day and do all the things sung by Bruno (-babes) Mars in his song THE LAZY SONG
6. I can watch concerts and even be invited in events (either for a huge amount of money or the best FREE!!!)
7. I can plan vacations so that when money/opportunity comes I can do them ;)
8. I can be my mom & dad's spy while they're away at work (spying on our drivers, school bus helpers and house hold help)
9. I don't pay any tax
10. and here's the greatest thing I think... I CAN STILL BE AN ACTIVE RED CROSS VOLUNTEER!!! (told you I love being a volunteer)

I hope people who read this would understand me more now. I hope you won't get me wrong...
I LOVE BEING A RED CROSS VOLUNTEER
I LOVE MY MOTHER
BUT THE FACT THAT I FEEL BEING LEFT ALONE, BEING STAGNANT IN MY WORLD, BEING CONTENTED IN WHAT I HAVE RIGHT NOW BUT CONSTANTLY GETTING THOUGHTS OF I NEED TO MOVE BECAUSE MOM'S NOT GETTING YOUNGER AND SO IS DAD, it just makes me feel more DEPRESSED, INFERIOR, ALONE...

The completion of my See My Favorites In One Year Bucketlist... Bruno Mars Manila 2014: Moonshine Jungle Tour

I have been dying to complete my bucketlist... and this is the one that completed it!!!

March 22, 2014

This was the date I have been waiting for  since late last year when they announced that BRUNO MARS will have an Asian Leg to his Moonshine Jungle Tour. I love his music, his soothing voice, and his pride of being a Filipino. I remember as I was in Cebu last August I was wondering where could his family/relatives be. As soon as I learned the date I noted it in my brain. Then as soon as I got my Starbucks planner I noted it at once...

I saved up my money coz I knw it would cost me a lot... Haller Bruno's an international artist and won several awards definitely his tickets would go higher that what it was 3 years ago. Then the ticket prices went out I was like P*T*NG *N*!!! SERIOUSLY?!?!?! I was expecting around PhP 1,000 increase pero dang! PhP 2,100 for GA??? HELL NO!!!

I'm just a simple VOLUNTEER and have NO PERMANENT SOURCE OF INCOME except for my mom's allowance hahaha... So I did my best to finish my hours and continuously conduct trainings after that. I also tried not to spend too much money. McDo and Jollibee were my ultimate best friends! And sometimes I make baon so that I could save more.

I joined every contest I see. It was February, I was thinking I may not win and I realize I could buy the ticket with my savings account's money. I was eyeing for Lower Box or Upper Box. Then I gave my saving a "taning" I said "MARCH, 1ST WEEK... I'LL BUY YOU TICKET!"

First Aid Station during Read With Me

March 1, 2014 I was a busy body... 4am I was at Filinvest City grounds for our First Aid Station for the Muntinlupa Day Event, READ WITH ME (HUMAN FLAG). Then 12nn We headed out to Festival Mall for our Mass Blood Donation. So Breakfast, and Lunch was technically FREE that day. Then me & my friends planned out to watch the Pyrolympics we had our ticket + dinner at PhP250 ;) Then when I was planning to go to the ticket booth ng SM MOA... I read sa twitter & FB SOLD OUT!!!







Naguho mundo ko!!! I was like "WTF bakit biglang BOOM!!! Sh*t naman... Bale wala lahat ng efforts ko..." :( on my way home I was trying to stop the tears (kasi mag-isa lang ako so nakakahiyang biglang umiyak di ba?) So when I got home I tried sleeping pero I slept around 4am na. I woke up around 7am for mass I prayed "LORD, PLEASE ISANG TICKET LANG PO NA KA KO! I KNOW YOU HAVE A PURPOSE BAKIT GANITO."

The next day I had a class at Amkor Binan. While my partner was discussing I got my cellphone and opened my bag and boom BASA BAG KO! I felt more depressed and even asked "LORD YUNG TOTOO??? SUNOD-SUNOD?" Then even the book I just borrowed was wet. I dried them up and hang them, then turned again to my cellphone and tried posting in BMPH that I was looking for tickets. People responded but then as soon as I message them they keep on telling me "AY SOLD NA PO." I was seriously? 2hrs lang na nagsalita ako sa unahan na-SOLD na agad-agad?

Me & Maan, the Angel who sold the ticket to me

Then heading home (to the office PRC Muntinlupa) I saw an ad selling a PATRON ticket, though not my type I can afford her price, thinking it would be my last resort, I automatically messaged her. And she entertained me. I eventually replied to her messages then later that night she asked me if she could call because I have a class the next day & everyone's sleeping I told her to just call me the following day and she did. We agreed and I pleaded her to save the ticket for me till Tuesday. She did. Came Tuesday I had a Mass Blood Donation I asked if I could just stay till 1pm. But then luckily it was a half day one so YEHEY! After the blood donation I went straight to the bus terminal and rode a bus to Ayala then I rode the MRT to Megamall. Waited for the ticket seller & met her. We talked about the concert, the ticket and shared some stories and she told me, she really wanted to know her "seatmate to be" and she chose me. Then we bid farewell. We didn't know it was a start of a friendship. :)


After the trouble I've been thru, my RC family kept on telling me  I was crazy but they kinda supported me too. :D My dad was asking if I already do have a ticket, I kept on telling him yes I have one but he seems to doubt till he kinda got a glimpse of my ticket.

I still joined some contests despite having a ticket thinking if I win I could sell the ticket and get my money back. Unfortunately I did not :( But me & my NEGOSANTE mind got an idea. I bought some stuff and sold it online. I also FINALLY got my check! So totally I got 1/4 of the ticket price.

I also made friends with some HOOLIGANS (BRUNO MARS' FAN BASE) and yes I joined a contest with them.

Even though I just wanna try if I could win and not expecting, we won. It was Viber's Pre-Concert Party I eventually planned what to do so that I could still attend the said event. Despite that it's held in Republiq (and I'm not a party gal and only have gone to 19 East as of bars are concerned) I managed to get my white lie going.

With my new found friends from the Viber Contest (Carmela & Nihay)

March 21, 2014 came and yes I saw him there up close. He was just a person away from me and I was almost there to reach him. But the experience was EPIC!!! He had smooth skin and is very much the same with all his pictures not touch ups done there!

Who would have thought I would see him a day earlier than his concert and that close??? IT WAS HEAVEN FOR ME!

March 22, 2014

Two Bruno Mars???

Then after that close encounter was the concert day I hang out with some people from the groups and learned more about the group, and of course Bruno. Inside the Arena I had some pictures with my new found friends. And coz we can't get closer to Bruno Mars, we had a picture with several look-a-likes, and one of them is Lester.

The Ultimate Bruno Mars look-a-like, Lester

He's also a Hooligan and definitely looks quite similar with Bruno people actually mistaken him as Bruno a lot! Even Bruno's band mates kinda look twice when they see him (I'm talking about Phil here)

















Then the concert. It was like the happiest hour of my life!!! singing and dancing taking pictures and videos the whole time. Then when it was the end I felt BITIN. This is my favorite part of the concert!!!

But still blessed. Me & the ticket seller, Maan agreed to have dinner and shared some stories. We also the decided to try follow Bruno to Solaire.

In Solaire we met some other Hooligans waiting for him. Lester was also there we recognized each other and eventually everyone became friends with each other. We shared stories not just of Bruno & how we loved him but also of each other. We learned that Ate Nan & Maan loves dogs, Karen & I live in Makati and that Lester's to be featured in Kapuso Mo Jessica Soho and that his mom is diagnosed with Cervical Cancer Stage 2. We were saddened by that but we kept on encouraging him and till now praying for his mom. We actually waited for 7 long hours for him but then we did not even see even his shadow. But we were already happy coz we had the ultimate experience and we all gained friends in each and everyone of us.

After Party ni BRUNO este Breakfast pala namin... hahaha

Well totally it was a very very happy (& crazy) weekend for me thanks to you BRUNO MARS!

PS If I haven't been able to buy the ticket, I would have flown to Jakarta (coz my Aunt lives there and I've been there before) and watch him at MEIE in Ancol. As in!!!! hahaha but next time I do have a PERMANENT JOB, MORE MONEY AND A STABLE MIND (hahah just kidding) I would really love to follow him again in his tour... ;)