Behind those lenses

It's nice to see the person you love smile...
But then you remember you're not the reason for his happiness...
It's nice to see the person you love persuing his dreams...
But then you remember you're not included in his plans...
It's nice to see the person you love surrounded by the people whom he cares the most...
But then you remember you were not the one beside him...
It's nice to see a picture of him with all smiles reaching his dreams with people around him helping him...
But even with this... you remember were not the one behind the lens to capture that moment...

But I never regret seeing these... I never regret stalking your feedw and seeing you reach your dreams... I never regret you touching my life... I never regret giving you all these emotions...

Despite the hurt.. despite the envy I felt for those people you seem to cherish... Despite giving away all the love I have and leaving little for myself...

I will still love you even from a far...
I will still love you even if you don't know it...
I will still love you even if I can only be the one behind the lens to capture those smiles... even if being behind those lenses means I am not the one beside you as you smile...
At least Behind those lenses... I can become one of the reasons that you smile... even for once...